--Forgiveness 12/15/2009 I've always wanted to be great to be remembered for the words I write or the phrases I'd frequently say Always hoped to be known And secretly I pined for the attention of mankind when all I really need was attention from you I fooled myself into believing that your approval meant nothing When in fact it shaped my life from the time I could walk until I learned to walk alone I'm not a child anymore but my heart still aches for your love begs pleadingly like a heartbroken lover and incessantly like my heart beat but you will never see me You've created this image of me and use it to justify who I am not up to your standards or apart of your perfection so I remain ignored And you continually show me that I will never be good enough could never be smart enough will never be loved enough And much to the distaste of my tough exterior my interior slowly dies inside never knowing real love because you were supposed to love me first And I carry the open wounds of your rejection like battle scars and warning signs stopping anyone from getting too close convincing myself that I'm damaged and pushing away those I loved the most Harbored anger and resentment lived in fear of becoming just like you but I'm not you can't become you won't be you so, I forgive you.
