adolescent pain dissolver
7/22/2009 at 6:33 PM
Desolation Angels, Chapter 44
WHAT DID I LEARN ON GWADDAWACKAMBLACK? I learned that I hate myself because by myself I am only myself and not even that and how monotonous it is to be monostonos--ponos--purt--pi tariant--hor por por--I learned to disappreciate things themselves and hanshan man mad me mop I don't want it--I learned learn learned no learning nothing--A I K--I go mad one afternoon thinking like this, only one week to go and I don't know what to do with myself, five straight days of heavy rain and cold, I want to come down RIGHT AWAY because the smell of onions on my hand as I bring blueberries to my lips on the mountainside suddenly reminds me of the smell of hamburgers and raw onions and coffee and dishwater in lunchcarts of the World to which I want to return at once, sitting at a stool with a hamburger, light a butt with coffee, let there be rain on redbrick walls and I got a place to go and poems to write about hearts not just rocks--Desolation Adventure finds me finding at the bottoms of myself abysmal nothingness worse than that no illusion even--my mind's in rags--
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Beeswax and damar resin, which you kind of have to look around for, but there will be some at professional art stores. I went to a place called Utrecht's.
it's called encaustic painting, it's very easy to find instructions on google. you weigh 9 parts beeswax, 1 part resin, you melt the wax first, then put in grinded resin and wait until that melts.
After that, you put them in cupcake pans and let them cool. That's your transparent (translucent) medium. Later on, when you heat up the cupcake pans, you can add colors (powdered pigments work great, but I use oil paints to save money.) Then, keeping the wax over heat, it's still liquid and you just take a brush and paint on wood! the painting technique to keep everything smooth is hard, but after a while you get used to it and you can also use a razorblade to scrape away bumps!