Lovesong II
The hole in my chest that almost disappeared is back
And it’s bigger then it was before
They tell me this isn’t my fault
The chemical imbalance in my brain has made me this way
And you stand by while I self destruct
You saved me for a little while,
You chased the shadows away
But you couldn’t save me forever
I needed you too much, you couldn’t stay
They came at me from every direction
Ripped me down to the ground
Screaming and crying, and gasping for air
They bit down hard and sucked out every drop of life I had left in me
And still you just stand there
Watching me,
Filling yourself with disgust for me
When it was you that said you wanted me this way in the first place
Let them tear me to pieces,
They’ve done it before
I got back up
But not this time
Look at all that’s left of me
Scattered pieces of sparkling material,
Fragments of a girl that used to be
I am nothing
And you are more then I ever laid eyes on
While they shred at my skin and gouge at my eyes
Their claws dragging me to the bottom of the ocean
Where I will never rest in peace
You hold yourself up and sigh
I was never good enough for you was I?
My hands aren’t working anymore
Blind panic, I can’t even scream
The sound gets stuck in my vocal cords,
They aren’t there anymore
They tore them out
My eyes don’t sparkle now
My hair doesn’t catch the light
There is nothing beautiful about me
I’m just a decaying corpse
You can’t even stand to look at me
My mouth isn’t moving,
Reminding you that I’m alive
I’m preserved in a life like position
My arms stretched out, reaching for you
Always reaching for you
I’m suffocating, I’m bleeding
I’m drowning, I’m dead
You close your eyes and turn away
Step by step you leave me
Did you always know it would end this way?
Let me tell you I loved you, so very much
But I couldn’t love myself
I could never love myself
The hole in my chest that almost disappeared is back
And it’s bigger then it was before
They tell me this isn’t my fault
The chemical imbalance in my brain has made me this way
And you stand by while I self destruct
You saved me for a little while,
You chased the shadows away
But you couldn’t save me forever
I needed you too much, you couldn’t stay
They came at me from every direction
Ripped me down to the ground
Screaming and crying, and gasping for air
They bit down hard and sucked out every drop of life I had left in me
And still you just stand there
Watching me,
Filling yourself with disgust for me
When it was you that said you wanted me this way in the first place
Let them tear me to pieces,
They’ve done it before
I got back up
But not this time
Look at all that’s left of me
Scattered pieces of sparkling material,
Fragments of a girl that used to be
I am nothing
And you are more then I ever laid eyes on
While they shred at my skin and gouge at my eyes
Their claws dragging me to the bottom of the ocean
Where I will never rest in peace
You hold yourself up and sigh
I was never good enough for you was I?
My hands aren’t working anymore
Blind panic, I can’t even scream
The sound gets stuck in my vocal cords,
They aren’t there anymore
They tore them out
My eyes don’t sparkle now
My hair doesn’t catch the light
There is nothing beautiful about me
I’m just a decaying corpse
You can’t even stand to look at me
My mouth isn’t moving,
Reminding you that I’m alive
I’m preserved in a life like position
My arms stretched out, reaching for you
Always reaching for you
I’m suffocating, I’m bleeding
I’m drowning, I’m dead
You close your eyes and turn away
Step by step you leave me
Did you always know it would end this way?
Let me tell you I loved you, so very much
But I couldn’t love myself
I could never love myself
