3/27/2007 at 7:17 PM

I've decided that marriage is a crock and isn't worth my time. Every single person I know that married doesn't even know if they are in love with the person there with. Or they just find them selfs doing what society says needs to be done. Even if its not what they want.

I've seen it again and again. And I am so damn sick of seeing the people I love in a bunch of pain because there "other" doesn't get what they want, or just doesn't seem to care. I can't sit there and let this shit happen and not get all pissed off. I can't handle seeing the people I love miserable. Its not far. I don't fucking deal well with my friends in pain. Not well at all.

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3/27/2007 at 5:27 PM

Im sitting at work, as I always am. Not much going on really. I was working on my Humble Voice page for a bit. I added a few pictures and a poem. I want to take some more pictures but I don't think my camera phone works to well for that. Well it does a bit, all the pictures on my site where taken with my phone, its a good phone. But I want a real camera, I need to talk some pictures dang it!

I have a friend, Minka who is having some issues with her hubby and this makes me sad. She seems to be pondering weather the last ten years of her life have been because she loved him or if it was just nice to have around. Huge issues actually, none in witch I am willing to talk a lot about. But I will keep it semi up to date.

It's raining outside, its all cold and gross. This makes me sad when it was all shiny and pretty two days ago. Oh well, I prefer the cold but that may because the sun wants to kill me and I melt when I see it. Tis sad.

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3/27/2007 at 2:58 PM

So I am sick, blah I say. Some basic spring cold type deal. No fun. I get to run my Mage table top game tonight, I'm excited. I haven't ran in forever. Maybe the PCs will actually follow the story line this time (haha.) I also have a big Cam-Mage deal tommarow. w00t. That is gonna be sweet. Sunday is a Tiffany day, Zach has to work swing shift. I am hoping to be nice and drunk tonight while I am STing. Thats right baby, no sleep, lots of dayquil and booze! I'll make a great ST I tell you. - They call me crazy but I swear my best games are the ones I was drunk while running.

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Pictures of me

2/1/2007 at 6:59 PM

So I'm sitting at work, nice and board. I take a picture of myself and look at it. I all of a sudden understand why I don't ever do that. I'm a slightly bigger girl and it shows in my chin and cheeks. I spend most of the day feelings fat. Not like a blimp or anything. Just kind of big. I am over wight. I am by no means fat, just bigger. And I really hate it. I keep wanting to go on a diet, and I give in. I keep wanting to be thinner and prettier, but it doesn't ever work. Good like finding photos of me, I hate my looks to much for that.

Leh sigh.

I am not looking for sympathy, just venting. Always just venting.

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"Climbing The Walls" The Backstreet Boys (yes, you read right)

3/28/2007 at 6:13 PM

"Climbing The Walls"

Close your eyes, make a wish
That this could last forever
If only you could stay with me now
So tell me what it is
That keeps us from each other now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever
And let me feel your pain kept inside (oh yeah)
There's gotta be a way
For you and I together now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss (ohh)
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

It's an illusion
How can I feel this way?
If I can't have you
It's an illusion
Nothing is real this way
If I can't have you

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now (now)
Caught by the taste of your kiss (I don't wanna know)
And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this (I'm climbing the walls)
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss

Ohhhh
I can't let you go no

And I don't wanna know
The reason why I
Can't stay forever like this (ohh ohh)
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss (I miss) you

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"Anything For You" - Evanescence

3/28/2007 at 1:56 PM

I'd give anything to give me to you
Can you forget the world that you thought you knew
If you want me,
Come and find me
Nothing's stopping you so please release me

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

Nothing left to make me feel anymore
There's only you and everyday I need more
If you want me
Come and find me
I'll do anything you say just tell me

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

Anything for you
I'll become your earth and sky
Forever never die
I'll be everything you need

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

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"Away From Me" - Evanescence

3/28/2007 at 1:53 PM

I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I

[Chorus:]
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

[Chorus]

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you

I have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you

Away from me.

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"Lips of An Angel" - Hinder

3/27/2007 at 2:56 PM

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?


Good song. I don't hear it often enough. Mostly at the club

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